Saturday, May 1, 2010

Why are there days

when I feel like I cannot make decisions?
I feel I can't trust myself.

I worry too much of what others think,
so then I go to the other extreme and take hold of my life and live for myself. I take of a stance of sheer disobedience to my truly caring heart.

I feel selfish.

And it continues to spiral downward.

Then, I just don't do anything.
As if I think standing still will keep me from hurting anyone else or myself.
And the spiral continues on...

until I find God again. And He fills me up.
My heart is longing. Where has He gone?

I miss my Love.
I miss my true heart.

1 comment:

Amanda Jane said...

I SO relate to this...lots of times.