I feel I can't trust myself.
I worry too much of what others think,
so then I go to the other extreme and take hold of my life and live for myself. I take of a stance of sheer disobedience to my truly caring heart.
I feel selfish.
And it continues to spiral downward.
Then, I just don't do anything.
As if I think standing still will keep me from hurting anyone else or myself.
And the spiral continues on...
until I find God again. And He fills me up.
My heart is longing. Where has He gone?
I miss my Love.
I miss my true heart.