Tuesday, November 30, 2010

This is the first year

that I have gotten in the Christmas spirit
simply to lift my mood and help me push through.

I listen to carols.
I decorate.
I daydream of a warm, cozy house with a lit up tree.
I look forward to spending time with my brother, parents, and friends.

I am making a list of things to do during break. I must make the most of it.
It will be excellent.
It must, it must.

.although it's been said many times, many ways: merry Christmas...to you.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Good-bye Larry.

You were a good uncle.

I won't forget how you mowed your lawn in such straight lines

Or built that target for us kids to practice throwing a football through

That you loved gardening so much

That you were usually quiet, but when you did speak it was kind or funny

That you loved the 'tube

Your suspenders.

Nov, 29th, 2010.
R.I.P. Rest with Jesus.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Hmmm.




hmmm.....











What to do,
what to do.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

It has been proven:

there IS an "I" in team.

This goes out too all you coaches that are tyrannical
nazi-like
and, well
incorrect.

Teamwork is not only good, it's great.
But the individual players matter too.

PS- You also say it's not all about winning, but you're actions speak otherwise. Adolescents want congruency: you are letting them down.

PPS- You have a great ability to have a positive impact. So....do it, all right?

Friday, November 19, 2010

I am not a performing monkey.

I only have so many talents, so many hours and so much energy.
You can pull at me from this direction
and you in that,
but I refuse to be torn apart.
I will remain intact.
I will do what I want and I will do what is needed.

You ask me for help, you ask to talk, you ask for a hug, you ask for a favor, you ask for my time
and..
I want to give it to you, I do.
So I do.
Then the next person asks as well.
So I do.
Eventually, I lose track of my goals because I'm making sure everyone else is comfortable.
And the crazy thing is:

I DO have the ability to say "no."

I feel selfish enough as it is.
But I do all this for others.
And I just want some "me time."
And others to care back. Care back and realize that sometimes I need to focus on me and let it not be selfishly.

.realizing.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

If we flavor-colored our snowmen in the winter

we'd have so many standing snow cones!

Kids would come from miles around and attach their faces to the flavory goodness.
They would get stomach aches.
Heck, they'd get frost-bitten lips-
not to mention the flu from little Tommy down the street who was working on the snowman's booty beforehand.

But hey! Wouldn't that be great?

[replace the ho! ho! ho! with some OM NOM NOM.]

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

It's about time to

I just want to go home,
I just want to get away.
I want to have time to think [not worry] about the important things in life.
I don't want to always wake up early,
run around all day like a chicken with its head cut off,
then hit the pillow for a bit to recoup,
just to wake up again to the hustle and bustle.

I want to enjoy life: breathe it in and then out and SAVOR it.

I want out of the system.

I want out of the system!

.I need to make a list of priorities.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Ah, science.

Sometimes.....you just shouldn't.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Creativity.

can be so flattering.

I enjoy clever people.

Use what you got, yeah.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I looked all cute

but had nowhere to go.

This made me feel good,
that I dressed up for me.

It also made me feel as though I was missing something-
that I should've been somewhere else.

I pray on, ya'll.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Newly discovered pet peeve:

people who scuffle as they walk.

It's like they don't understand the concept of picking up their feet completely to take steps.
Instead, we get to hear the soles of their shoes skid against the ground with every
single
step.

Maybe this doesn't bother other people.
But I have this strange kind of sensitive hearing that some little sounds just resonate in my ears really, really well.
(like scuffling feet)
and I just want it to end.

So.
Stop being lazy ya'll.
Pick up those feet.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I was born to die,

that the Son may live.


I am daily trying to get my head around that
...and I need His help.