Friday, December 31, 2010

2011: Happy New Year!

I am now taking ideas for New Year's resolutions.
You may post here, text me, or post on my facebook. :)

One year, I counted every piece of gum I chewed. I think I have a blog post about it, but I'm too lazy to look it up....but it was A LOT.

So throw your confetti
blow your sound-makers
take your pictures
down your drinks
kiss your loved ones/strangers
dance your booty off
and yell at the top of your lungs

because we've got 365 days to take on again. Let's start it off right, together.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

"Something has changed within me.

Something is not the same."

Up until this break, I had taken any step to relish my childhood.
I wanted to "be forever young."
I had the spirit of a child.
But something has transformed.

I have less fear of the future. I have less fear of wanting it to be here quickly.
I now want to work toward the future.
I'm stopping this reminiscent tom-foolery.

It's exciting.
I no longer feel like a child.
I am coming into my own.
I still believe that part of "genius is carrying the spirit of childhood into maturity" and I strive to live as such.
But, with the help of the Lord, I have the power to shape my future. It is endless possibilities.
It is exciting. And scary. And I want to venture into that unknown. Weird. :)

Keep me in your prayers.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Sunday, December 12, 2010


There is hope.
There is hope in the words of others.
There is hope in the Word.

Jesus loves me!
And I relearn it so often.
He is all I need.
He is all I need!
HE is the One.

I'm in love.
I'm in love with Him.

And I'm still learning.
I feel as though I'm starting preschool
all over again.

His hand is in this, it must be.
Through frustration, through feelings of distance, through apathy, through anger, through tears, through anger, through feelings of distance, through frustration, through tears, through apathy;
He will still reach my heart.
Even if He has to rock my world to get me to pay attention.

He deserves it all.
He deserves my all.

I lay at Your feet, Lord.
Pick me up, spin me around, make my world.
I delight.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I've come to enjoy

dressing for cold weather.

The past year or so I thought I had become a normally "warm" person,
but now I feel the need to wear more to keep myself from feeling chilled.

I think my skin tone is also better suited for colder climates.
I love my pale skin
and deep colored, warm clothes.

Some days I like to sport the "Snow Bunny" look (wow, I just looked that up on google images and that is NOT exactly what I mean, haaa).
When I think Snow Bunny, I think long sleeves, deep denim, fuzzy boots, fluffy hair, cute winter coat, scarf, gloves, ear muffs- you name it.

Ah, the Christmas season.
It makes me think of going snowboarding-
then I remember that it kind of scares me.
Dream on!

.walking in a winter wonderland.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Some people

you just can't get through to.

The wall was up, refusing to be broken down, or even glanced over.
You are creating it. It's all in your head. It doesn't have to be, but it is forced to be.
And it's sad.
But there is more freedom in this choice for me.
And it can be an opportunity for growth for you.

This decision was not an easy one at all.
But I began to realize it wasn't because I was being considerate of another, it was because I was being ruled by another. And that is unacceptable.

Clinging to the next thing or person will continue this path.
Holding idols of wanted future things; God may rip them from you.
Though you try so hard, those things are not in your control.
I worry for your sake.

.abre los ojos.
.abre las manos.
.permite vivir.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

To cross

means pain, but
to cross means progress.

I've been behind this fence so long.
Thinking so much of and for others.
It's time for me to consider moving forward.
For me.
For my life.


Wednesday, December 1, 2010

La vida.

We're born.
We go to school to gain knowledge.
We gain knowledge to get a job.
We get a job to support ourselves and be able to send our kids to college.
So they can get knowledge.
So they can get a job and support their families.

What a nasty cycle.
I do and don't want a part in it.

There are some days I just want to become a gypsy.
I'd float from place to place
meeting a lot of cool people
living frugally
not worrying about paying a heating bill
or getting the oil changed in the car
or investing money.
Just- live day to day.

Actually trust God for once.

moneymoneymoney, I spit on you.
..Then I wipe it off :(

I'm such a product of the system.