Monday, September 5, 2011

I have neared the point

of not wanting to sleep anymore.

My dreams are haunting me.

Reminding me of all I've missed.
Of what I want and don't want.
Of that with which I struggle and ponder too much.

They play with me; past, present, and future.
Messing with my fears and regrets.
It pressures and upsets
the equilibrium of my heart.

It is so worn down, worn out- my heart.
Like it wants a new start but it fears falling apart.

I don't want to sit and wait for the curtain to fall.
But I can't be the director, nor can I sit against the wall.

I do my best to suck it up and stand tall.
Reminding myself:
There is a season for everything.

1 comment:

Jesse said...

Thank you for showing me that pic! I love it, I want one :) & how good is pintrest??! xx