I am not a performing monkey.

I only have so many talents, so many hours and so much energy.

You can pull at me from this direction

and you in that,

but I refuse to be torn apart.

I will remain intact.

I will do what I want and I will do what is needed.

You ask me for help, you ask to talk, you ask for a hug, you ask for a favor, you ask for my time

and..

I want to give it to you, I do.

So I do.

Then the next person asks as well.

So I do.

Eventually, I lose track of my goals because I'm making sure everyone else is comfortable.

And the crazy thing is:

I DO have the ability to say "no."

I feel selfish enough as it is.

But I do all this for others.

And I just want some "me time."

And others to care back. Care back and realize that sometimes I need to focus on me and let it not be selfishly.

.realizing.